#Questival

 

Day 1: Let's Hope This Works.

Well blogger world. We meet again. I've come to the conclusion that you are my hoe. I am hoping that this doesn't come to offend you but it is true. I look to you as a last resort, a place I can go when I feel like I can't do any better and need a self esteem boost, a "booty call" if you will. I keep remaking blogs because the others are sad, trashed, left in the dust.. they are my collection of hoes. I am a player when it comes to you blogs but I just can't settle. I am hoping that this blog comes to be my wife blog. That I attach to and treat well but I guess only time will tell. Alright well here we go... I feel that another introduction is necessary. Let's make a fresh start, you may call me Eleanor. I would like to go by this name for two reasons. The first reason is that I simply love the name. I wish to one day name a daughter this, I feel that it is not very common and I have personally always been a fan. The other is that like much of the world I feel lonely. Being a fan of The Beatles I find myself listening to Eleanor Rigby and relating. I have never been able to find my purpose in life and I hope that I can learn to pay attention to situations better and be able to analyze occurrences in my life more. Until I find myself and my purpose I will tell my tale as Eleanor.

I am just going to get right to it and be blunt. A lot of changes have been happening in my life and I have been having a difficult time. My family is getting worried which isn't a usual thing for them. I don't know how to deal with their constant worries and to be honest they are just adding on to the pile instead of easing the load. I know that they mean well so I try not to complain. Background: I am the youngest of 5 girls and 2 boys. They have all been blessed with smarts and talents. I am the runt. K back to the story, I am 18 and 9 months. I have never been one to talk about the bad in my life and have actually been known often as the girl with the constant smile on her face, the girl that is always positive, the one who keeps the mood light. But two months ago I came down with Bell's Palsy after a lot of stressful situations and people began to open their eyes. Maybe Eleanor isn't as happy as she seems. Everything began to come together for the people who surrounded me.

I want to use this blog to document my life and the ups and downs that I have faced. I feel it would be good for me and well if anything it is a place to put my memories before I soon forget. I will be posting here and there when I find time and writing memories that I have found important. Some maybe be in order while some I will toss around. But let's just start with the beginning shall we :)